"May Adonai bless you and protect you! May Adonai deal kindly and graciously with you! May Adonai lift up his countenance upon you and grant you peace!" (Torah, Numbers 6:24-26) And Jesus said, "Allow the little children to come unto me. Forbid them not, for of such is the Kingdom of God. Truly, I say unto you, unless you receive the Kingdom of God as a little child does, you shall not enter therein." (New Testament, Mark 10:14-16)

Sojourning at an Oasis Paradise

My purpose for living this life, and for writing this blog, is to understand the faith that links us to God. I wish to explore and discuss the reality at the heart of all of the world's religions. This is an immense task, but I know that God also has faith in us, trusting that we do desire the truth, as well as freedom, love and wisdom. Thus, as always, He meets us halfway. Even as God has given us individual souls, so we must each of us trace out an individual pathway to God. Whether we reside in the cities of orthodox religion, or wend our solitary ways through the barren wastelands, God watches over us and offers us guidance and sustenance for the journey.


Most of what you will see here is the result of extensive personal study, combined with some careful speculation. Occasionally, I may simply offer some Scripture or an inspirational text. I am a wide reader, and the connection of some topics and ideas to matters of faith and religion may not seem immediately obvious, but perhaps I may spell it out in the end... or maybe, you will decide that it was just a tangent. Anyway, I hope that you will find my meanderings to be spiritually enlightening, intellectually stimulating, or at least somewhat entertaining.

Friday, November 26, 2021

A Counterculture for Transforming the World

 Beginning in the 4th century AD, when the Roman Empire legalized Christianity, we had to find a new way to witness for our faith. No longer did we have the threat of martyrdom in the arena hanging over our heads. Being a devout Christian no longer represented the willingness to sacrifice in order to follow our Lord. What did we have to give up, when it became a status bonus to follow the religion of the Emperor? And yet, clearly the world had not yet embraced the Kingdom of God. 

So in protest against the "worldliness" of the way that people lived throughout the Empire, a few brave souls decided to walk away from the cities. They wanted to find a place where they could concentrate on their search for God, first and only. They left behind the usual values of success and wealth, the rampant idolatry of the old gods, and the distractions of popular culture in order to "seek first the Kingdom of God." They gave up homes and family, jobs and status, even the respect and approval of their peers, and walked out into the wilderness to pray and fast. They sought to be personally transformed by a closer relationship with the Lord Jesus, in just the same way that Jesus walked away to the wilderness to pray after his baptism in the Jordan. They became hermits in the desert. 

Of course, they knew it would be hard. It's never easy to fast and pray. It takes lots of determination to defy conventional "wisdom" and to follow a way that the world views as "crazy." And there would be temptations. The Devil must divert those who choose to break a new path to God, lest they succeed and draw others behind them. Jesus Himself was tempted to get off the path, into materialism, hyper-spiritualism, or political power, but He saw those traps and avoided them. Satan would have temptations and traps for them, too, passions and extremism of all sorts, and some would give up in frustration, finding that they could not persevere alone. 

Plus, our Lord came to serve, so we have to find ways to serve also, and not just retreat from the world. His Presence was his witness to the Kingdom, because He is perfect, but our witness would be our absence, because we are not. Our service is to pray for the world, that it might be transformed into our Lord's Kingdom, and all souls might turn to Him and be saved. But first we have to be transformed ourselves, by His grace allowing us to remain in His Presence. One of his graces has been to let us gather together in small groups, like-minded, to pray together and help guide each other. 

In the early days of the Desert Fathers, those who were recognized as exceptionally holy became leaders, as the beginners came to them for advice. The saints, Anthony and Pachomius, organized their followers into communities of monks, on the principle that each would be a help to the others, to encourage and reprove each other along the path. The community would assign tasks to each for its collective upkeep, according to their skills. These were usually simple tasks, anything from weaving mats, to keeping bees, to cooking dinner, or copying scriptures for those who had nothing to read. The monks were expected to be able to continue to pray while they worked, and there were also times when the community would come together to pray, or to eat dinner together and listen to a reading from the Scriptures. 

In these early years, the monks would have been daily praying through the whole book of Psalms, as well as a daily liturgy including the Eucharist. At first, they used a bowl or bag of stones, 150 of them, to keep track of their progress, but later they found that a knotted rope was far easier to use and carry, so they could be away from their cells to work and not lose track of their prayers. Eventually, they would have every one of the Psalms safely in their memories, and could recite them all by heart. And of course, they would meditate on episodes from our Lord's life, and dwell on his sayings. 

Nearly from the beginning of this monastic development, Saint Anthony would have had a copy of Saint Athanasius' New Testament, which he compiled in 367 AD. This was the first list of the same 27 books that we know as canonical today. The two men were close friends, and Bishop Athanasius stayed in the desert with Anthony on several occasions. He later wrote Anthony's biography. If a monk could have had a copy of one of the Gospels, it would have been a most prized possession. For certain, it would have been a source of "holy reading" at the dinner gathering. 

Of course, every community needs a set of rules to prevent confusion and keep them on track. Saint Pachomius was the first to make up a Rule for his community. He called it "The Paradise," and it was so successful that he drew enough followers to fill eight monastic communities. Elsewhere, each community had its own Rule to follow, some more strict than others, but all involved some degree of asceticism. There was almost always a requirement to take vows of poverty, chastity and obedience. Thus, there were some who desired a monastic life, but who could bear neither the strictures nor the privations, and they wandered from one community to the next, seeking a "proper fit."

The abbots were well aware of this aimless wandering, and many stated that a monk would be better off to simply choose one place and stay put. As Saint Anthony said it, "A frequently transplanted tree cannot bear fruit." Finally, it was Saint Benedict who decided that any monk who wished to join his community would also have to take a vow of stability as well. This meant promising that he would stay in one place, until sent away by the Abbot. The Rule of Saint Benedict was so successful that it became the basis of most of the monastic communities in Europe. And since it was meant to be a humane, if simple way of life, a monk would rather stay in place than leave, unless the Abbot sent him in a small group to found another monastery. It was also Saint Benedict who established the canonical Hours of Prayer, or "Opus Dei" as he chose to call it. Eight times each day, including once during the night, the monks would come to chapel to pray, chanting a liturgy of Psalms. This is still the common practice of monks to this day. 

As not all novices applying for entrance into a monastic community were literate, especially during the "Dark Ages" between the sack of Rome in 405 and the rise of Charlemagne's Holy Roman Empire, and allowing for the scarcity of hand copied books, the practice of praying the whole book of Psalms began to wane. It was difficult to find a teacher to tutor one in reading, and no less challenging to acquire a text for study and memorization. Thus, many of the younger monks would make do by reciting other, better known prayers, like the Jesus prayer, the Our Father or a prayer to the Virgin Mary, and counting out 150, or more, of these each day. The long strings of knots then came to be called a Rosary, especially when a majority of the prayers were offered to Mary toward the end of the 7th century. There was no official rule to organize how the prayers were said, but combining the practice with meditations on various episodes from the Gospels was a natural extension of devotion. It also helped to forestall the criticism that one was merely piling up a multitude of words without meaning, which Jesus warned us against. 

Eventually, the Rosary that we know today began to emerge after the turn of the millennium. Its division into decades marked by beads made the practice much easier than reciting all of the Psalms from memory. And the shorter prayers, fewer in number, could satisfy the intention to pray without ceasing without the need for posession of a book. Soon, various mendicant orders, pursuing an apostolic vocation of preaching and service in the world, began to use the Rosary as a teaching device. 

Indeed, legend has it that, in the early 12th century, Saint Dominic received a vision of Mother Mary in which she requested that the faithful should pray the Rosary, and promised to intercede for us with Jesus and bestow many boons of grace on those who would persevere on a daily basis. The followers of Saint Francis also made habitual use of the Rosary in this way. The popularity of this practice swelled, not only among those with religious vocations, but also among the common people all across Europe. And in 1569, Pope Pius V, himself a Dominican, officially sanctioned the Rosary as a devotion of the Catholic Church. 

In 1683, a campaign of praying the Rosary was credited with gaining divine assistance for the armies of the Holy Roman Empire and the Polish-Lithuanian alliance in their battle to relieve the seige of Vienna imposed by the Ottoman Turks. Thereafter, praying the Holy Rosary has remained the weapon of choice for civilians to support their troops who have been deployed into conflict. And in 1917, in a vision at Fatima, Our Lady asked that we pray the Rosary for an end to World War I. If these prayers hold out the hope that our warlike inclinations can be ameliorated and curtailed, then perhaps the world can be transformed. 

And so we see a gradual transition. Those who once were discontented with the world are no longer abandoning its distractions and demands for commerce with conventional "wisdom." They are trying to evangelize any who will listen, and praying that the Gospel might now prove to be a leaven to cause the world itself to rise toward God. And a primary tool applied to this task is one conceived in the desert by hermits, and in the monasteries of the disaffected: the Holy Rosary offered to the Mother of God. Its decades of prayers remind the faithful to meditate on the life of our Lord Jesus. And perhaps we will thus be transformed into his likeness, and carry with us a little spark of the Kingdom of God. Then, some day, the Light may prove more powerful than the darkness, and the society of men may begin to resemble that of the angels in Heaven. "Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on Earth, as it is in Heaven." We must have faith, and hope, and love one another as Jesus loved us. 


Friday, November 12, 2021

Praying with Jabez and Bartimaeus

 O Lord, Jesus, our Messiah, 

I am unworthy of notice, 

Yet I would ask your mercy. 

Teach me your Way of Seeing, 

and restore my ears and eyes. 

I seek your constant blessing, 

to dwell in your holy Presence. 

Lead me to your horizons, 

and let your hand be with me. 

Keep me safe from harm, 

and let me be free from pain. 

Open my lips and hands, 

for blessings and generosity. 

You have my devotion and praise. 

I'm begging, like a lonely child. 

Thank you, my Lord. Amen.


Monday, November 1, 2021

Sympathy for Sinners

 Can we enjoy Heaven, knowing of loved ones in Hell? It is a question to consider. 

In one of his lectures, R.C. Sproul, a Presbyterian pastor and Reformed theologian, asserts that when we get to Heaven we will be so changed by our own glorification, so amazed by the extinction of sin, and so fully enamoured by God's holiness that all else will pale into obscurity. Only the full glorification of God in his holiness will be of any interest, and we will totally disregard the plight of those who failed to gain salvation. Those we once knew and loved will be forgotten, and disregarded. Only God, and nothing else will matter. We will be overawed, and obsessed with worshipping God.

I'm sorry. I just cannot believe that. If God's infinite holiness is so all important, then his infinite mercy must also be its equal. That means, simply, that this idea of divine all-or-nothing justice - eternal heaven, or hellfire unending - must be modified. There are MUCH BETTER ways to punish sinners. If God can't, or won't use Karma, or something similar, then He is not just. If He is that vain and stuck on his own holiness and glory, then He is not worthy to be God. Holiness without mercy is not Divinity. To Dr. Sproul, I must reply, "Your God is too small. Your thoughts are not his thoughts. " 

God, in his infinite mercy, would have mercy for ALL SINNERS, regardless of faith. After all, He sends his rain for the unjust, as well as for the just. If life is like a university, where we learn spiritual truths, and not merely a testing ground to separate the "worthy" from the "defective," then there is room for our improvement. And I am not willing to say that God isn't perfectly able to create all of us worthy to be saved, if we use our own choice to accept Him.

 Once He sadly consigns those who insist on rejecting Him, and who stood for evil in knowing opposition to his goodness, to the punishment they demanded, God has before Him a choice. He has to decide what to do with those who were too weak, or ignorant, to strive with whole hearts and minds to follow Him without any regard for the wisdom of this world. This world is a hard test, which only the sternest and most single minded can hope to pass. Those who do are rightly lauded as "saints," and their passage to Heaven is clear. The question remains for how to justly reward or edify those who desired to reach for God, even tried to do so, but fainted on the Way before they passed into their final sleep. 

And, is it fair to condemn those who never heard that there was a choice, whose best intentions could only be to follow the path of moral goodness through the world, without being such a fool as to eschew a successful life? The world has its own rules, sometimes rational, even if often disregarded by the masses. We can choose Good, the best that we can discern, even if we don't know God. It was for those good souls, who lived before his time, that Jesus descended into Hell before his resurrection, so that they could hear and choose to believe and follow Him back into the Light. Of course, "good souls" is a relative term, for all have sinned and fallen short, and need to choose faith in Jesus. 

But since that day, we have been given the "Great Commission," and Jesus doesn't go to Hell every weekend to rescue the ignorant. Rather, we all must stand before Him, in his role as judge, to be compared to his holiness and offered his mercy. Have we believed, and now make claim for his forgiveness? Or do we beg for a second chance? What is the course of infinite mercy, without defying justice? We don't throw the ignorant into jail, but we educate them and release them on probation. Can Jesus do any less?

The idea of Karma was developed to serve the needs of justice, even when it seems that the unjust avoid it in this life. Immortal souls are reincarnated to new lives, in which their new circumstances reflect either punishment or reward, and the person is expected to try to learn how to progress spiritually toward eventual merging into bliss with the gods. This can be repeated over and over, until the end of time. It is a brilliant idea, and Jesus could use it to place a soul where it will definitely hear the Gospel, and thus have its own choice to make. And He can know how well the message was understood, to know if yet another chance might serve both mercy and justice. He could  teach them over and over, for eternity if necessary, that the wages of sin lead to suffering, and that rejecting good and God leads to Hell. He could even offer a deconstruction to non-being, granting oblivion to one who just wants it all to end. THAT would be a loving, merciful God... to teach, until they may eventually get it right. 

And then, we have a theoretical case of a believer who isn't good enough for Heaven, or who carries with him remainders of defilement, which holiness must insist on removing before entrance can be granted. This is a "Leave your muddy shoes outside" theology. Forgiveness has done its work, and the person is saved from eternal punishment, but they didn't work hard enough to achieve their own holiness. They still had some "bad habits" that they need to be rid of before they are welcomed inside. This is where the Catholic Church brings up its doctrine of Purgatory. This is where souls are purified in a process that closely resembles the punishments of Hell, but is of limited and temporal duration, lasting only as long as the severity of one's sins deserves. 

This "purgatory" sounds like a contradiction to me. If one sin deserves eternal damnation, but a lifetime of "forgiven" sins can be purified, how is that any kind of justice? Either one is forgiven, or he is not. How does eternity in Hell translate into a temporary stay in prison, being tortured to  expunge the filth of sin? We were "washed in the blood of the Lamb," were we not? If someone is washed, are they not clean? And surely, if Jesus is authorized by the Father to forgive, is He not powerful enough to transform us clean when we are "clothed" in our resurrection bodies? It sounds like the Ultimate Divine One has never heard the phrase "forgive and forget." It's just not a credible extension of justice or mercy. And if holiness trumps those two, then it borders rather too closely to vanity and pride. That's not something I would expect from a God who would choose to empty Himself of his power and dignity to be born in a stable.

According to the Catholic Church, why do we go to Purgatory? They point to three things:
1. Reparations - Justice demands that you fix what you did wrong. This is not always possible.
2. Venial sins - Any unconfessed minor sins that are not yet forgiven by a priest.
3. Residual wounds - Habitual sins leave behind a pattern of inclination toward selfishness. 

That sounds logical, if you're thinking in a merely material world, but God is Spirit. His abundance can cover any losses that require reparations. Then, if Christ's blood covers all sins, then forgiven for salvation should include all of our sins, no matter when they occur. And Jesus can heal us instantly and completely when we die, so that we are freed from sin, and this is sealed when our bodies are transformed in resurrection. This whole thing sounds so petty and wholly unnecessary. Doesn't the Holy Spirit want to give us grace in abundance? This sounds like the Church still has a box full of Papal indulgences to sell. 

Do yourself a favor. Go to confession, do your penance, and attend Holy Mass on Divine Mercy Sunday. You will receive a plenary indulgence, and skip right past the door to purgatory. If you do that, and avoid all mortal sins, you'll be fine. 

If you're not Catholic, take your daily confessions to Jesus very seriously. He will be ready to forgive you and teach you how to do better. And find a Church that serves regular communion. Then try to always practice the presence of our Lord, for the sake of Love. And when you do good works, do them for Love of God. This is the fruit and evidence of your salvation, not a building up of merit. If you want to have rank in the Kingdom, then serve many as much as you can. 

In my humble opinion, the concept of purgatory and the promise of forgiveness cannot be fully aligned. God would not make his beloved children suffer to atone for sins that Jesus has already paid the price for, and we ourselves have had to experience the anguish of passing through death to be rid of. Forgiveness would stand at the door to the wedding hall to pass out clean gowns to all who come to attend. 

God does not stand on his dignity, vainly basking in his own glory, proclaiming his righteousness and holiness to all who attend, and inspecting us for any hint of a shadow of stain as we come forward to offer Him worship. His Love is so all-encompassing that He wants to see as many of us in attendance as may agree to come, for our own good and enjoyment, not his vanity. His Son's glory is enhanced by the increasing numbers of those who recognize Him as Savior, not by those who suffer for rejecting Him.

So do I think that God's glory will be my highest concern?  Nope. I don't worship a flawed god. I will be devoted to responding with love to Him who loved me despite my wretchedness, and who cares about giving me a place and a role to play among the heavenly host. I know that He wants me to be happy forever. 

As for those who rejected God and end up spending eternity in Hell, I am a bit sad and disappointed for them. Jesus, too, feels pangs of sad compassion for those who suffer. But it was their choice to reject him, and to oppose the way of goodness, refusing compassion to the people whom they knew in this world. If they now desire pity and compassion, they have only themselves to blame. And I have better things to do, although I might remember once in a while. 

But I don't think this Professor, pastor and theologian, has any idea of what he's talking about. He doesn't know the God that I have come to love. I don't worship a flawed God, who fails to remember those who suffer. Perhaps a time may come when my truly loving God will put an end to suffering once and for all.