"May Adonai bless you and protect you! May Adonai deal kindly and graciously with you! May Adonai lift up his countenance upon you and grant you peace!" (Torah, Numbers 6:24-26) And Jesus said, "Allow the little children to come unto me. Forbid them not, for of such is the Kingdom of God. Truly, I say unto you, unless you receive the Kingdom of God as a little child does, you shall not enter therein." (New Testament, Mark 10:14-16)
Sojourning at an Oasis Paradise
Most of what you will see here is the result of extensive personal study, combined with some careful speculation. Occasionally, I may simply offer some Scripture or an inspirational text. I am a wide reader, and the connection of some topics and ideas to matters of faith and religion may not seem immediately obvious, but perhaps I may spell it out in the end... or maybe, you will decide that it was just a tangent. Anyway, I hope that you will find my meanderings to be spiritually enlightening, intellectually stimulating, or at least somewhat entertaining.
In the coming weeks and months, I intend to transcribe a series of essays that I wrote about 20 years ago in the hope that I might get them published. They represent the nucleus of my spiritual life and the focal point around which my wanderings revolve like an electron in an atom. I hope that they might eventually serve as a springboard for discussions about the common spiritual heritage of humanity. May we come together and embrace each other in peace.
Monday, February 7, 2011
A Spiritual Seeker Wandering Abroad - 1st essay of my book... (part 1)
Who am I?
born with no asking,
not of consent, nor desire...
not of attachment, nor explaining why,
but with flesh and bone and blood
bound by force and matter
thinking and feeling...
I wonder and ask, learn and ponder,
free but now desiring
self-conscious and inspired.
I am a human being,
desiring to know eternity
destined to leave just memory
more than animal, less than God...
contradiction and paradox.
What is this life?
survival despite tragedy,
suffering, hardship, ignorance, death.
a quest for Truth,
blind, irrational, stumbling, confused.
a quest fot Freedom,
constrained, exploited, beaten, confined.
a quest for Love,
isolated, despised, outcast, unknown.
a quest for Wisdom,
beguiled, wasteful, aimless, meaningless.
knowing it could be set aright,
but failing to be all we meant to be.
Destiny written on blowing sands.
What do we want?
needing others for fulfillment,
we compete for each advantage.
suffering from deep aloneness,
we fear to trust a friend.
unaware of our potential,
we sate ourselves with pleasures.
searching for one sure hope,
we deceive for merest gain.
We act as if insane.
Who really cares?
I fight despair
with friendship and faith,
sure only of spirit.
I seek to know my God...
beyond the bottomless chasm,
inside my heart of hearts,
I seek to touch a friend,
who knows my deepest dreams,
And this forlorn, undying hope
must be enough.
I speak to all my relatives and neighbors on this beautiful planet earth. I ask you to listen to my words and weigh them fairly, as my friends, for so also would I listen to yours. We have a common cause, no matter who we are, or where we live. Thus, I seek to promote peace, understanding, and possibly cooperation among us. When I look around me, I see a world in crisis. Of course, this is not news. And yet, today, we have a choice. That is what the word "crisis" means - "choice" - and there is no one of us who has no influence upon his neighbors and through them upon the world at large.
There are many things tearing at the fabric of our world: international and political rivalry, ecological degradation, racial bigotry, and even spiritual hubris... all overlaid upon the perennial problems of vice, alienation, and egotistic self-interest. These are big problems, and together so confusing that most of us have no idea how to begin to solve them. I have no claim to any special revelations, nor any final answers, but I must offer what I can... and that is my point, really, in these essays: that we each must do something, whatever contribution we are able to make. Our leaders cannot do it all for us. For just as they are not completely responsible for our present predicament - things are far too complex and clouded for that - neither are they so gifted with the supreme insights that would be necessary to unravel it. Rather together, we are responsible for the present and the future, individually and collectively.